so i'm fickle! so sue me. i begin to trust people when they begin to trust me. give and take sorta thing. nowadays, unfortunately, i take more than i give... and it's sad, but hopefully that'll soon change. in the past month or so, my family and i have gotten closer [my dad and brother are moving up here, in a house we got for them], and i've found a great friend in someone [he knows who he is, hehe] who sees something in me that even i can't begin to see in myself. even when i'm feeling down, there's always something i can look forward to, or something to be enlightened about. i've nothing to complain nor worry about [wholely], and i know this sounds...idk, like i'm talking out of my ass... but it makes me want to do what i can do help the hurricane survivors. shit, no matter who they are or what they've done, i don't think anyone deserves losing everything.
it's sad when there are people out there living out their insecurities in others. they turn a hard shell toward others who they might recognize as their enemy, even when they don't know this person. to me, maturity means that you always see the bright side in people, knowing there is the not-so-bright side, but dealing with it the best way possible anyway. right now i don't hate anyone - to me, that's an emotion that's very hard to express. sure i hate pain, i hate suffering, i hate unnecessary violence... but hate for someone i don't even know is just fucking pathetic. if you think about it, we waste our energy into so many unnecessary things, while we could be doing so many other productive things. we waste our brainpower thinking of new things of how to get up in the world, instead of trying to come up with the cure for the common cold or some shit. we humans always want to see ourselves as being superior to others, be it the animal world, or our fellow species. ah fuck it, why waste my time? it takes just eons for us to get where we are. then we forget who we are sometimes, our limitations, but especially our potential.
i may complain about my job, or about the little things that bother me about my life... but definitely, i think i've got it made compared to most. i've not the time to point out the faults in others when i've so many in myself. but it's true when i say i don't want to be anyone else, but i do want to be a better person as a whole.
I wish people meant what they say more often.
true, that.
