8.13.2005
hmmm....
sad that shan might not be able to go to canada - she is w/o a passport :(
wtf, that fucking sucks!! *sigh* i'm thinking of getting her the kama sutra
book she's always wanted... :) or this thing on sensual masseuse manuevers
and whatnot, hahaha! but i'm being serious, which makes it even funnier...
well, worky poo is just GREAT. not really... it's driving me crazy that i go
against what i say, like saying i'm going to quit but i don't. not that i don't
want to, it's just the prospect of getting a new job is the whole hassle. it's
this great big obstacle that's robbing me of my future.
or something like that.
hung out @ flavordisk's last night with jon and some of flavor's roommates,
watched nip/tuck, haha, had some beers - or i had one, i needed to drive
home and i was already so tired by then... idk, it was weird, sitting on that
couch with all those homies. not weird, it was totally fine with me, i was
pretty chill... just, i don't know, nevermind, haha. i'm not going to explain
myself all the time. i need to maintain SOME level of mystery in my life,
albeit a miniscule amount, but hey, a miniscule amount is still considered
an amount. get me?
it was also funny to see jon all drugged up like he was. poor guy, he collapsed after writing some ill lyrics while with only and al-one, from what i heard, his back was already screwed from a long ago car accident. guess it was a sure sign not to fuck around with words, haha. some people need schooling on that particular topic, playing around with words. after i took a nap, i remembered a line i said before i woke up, "such pretty words aren't meant to come out as lies from such an ugly mouth." haha such a fucked up dream.
talked with marta about applying for a new job at this one place her bro
applied at and got paid $10 an hour... not fuckin' bad! i mean, for a temp job
or something. might do that tuesday. we laughed SO MUCH today about
so many things - like Tony one of the perverted residents, and just...
oh man, we couldn't stop laughing, marta, rosalba and i. they're great pals,
plus coworkers - w/o them, my days at work would be shitty as all get out.
erika and lulu advice me during my lunch break about my guy problems,
haha, oh man, they're so good at that... but erika, out of all of them. she's
been married for 12 years, and she tells me of all the shit she's gone through
with her amor.
"the greatest advice i can give you is this: don't listen to what people say.
only you know what's really going on, only YOU know this guy, because if
something goes wrong, you would have to say at the end 'it was HER/HIM
that told me to do it this way!' no, it doesn't work that way. you have to listen
to your heart - do what feels right to you. if doesn't work out, it doesn't work
out. at least you won't have regrets because somebody else gave you bad
advice."
haha, i loved that. it was great. plus i talked to dast on MSN and on the phone
and he seemed to make me feel better about my woes. but i reassured him
of my revelation, how i couldn't give a big fat one anymore, but he read
right through me. just like rob does. geez. i wish i wasn't so transparent, ha.
but i am. i think i always will be.
that fucking sucks. i tell you hwhat.
and i was too tired today to do anything. i could've gone over to john's to kick
it and have him cook some sort of thai food for me, have a couple cold ones, but
NO, i was too tired. or played some "broken pinball" and watched a sad movie
with dast, but NO, or i could've driven 5 minutes and kicked it over at flavorisk's
again. but NO, i was too damn tired. grar. my head's tellin me yes, but my body's
tellin me ...
yeah, you get the gist. rawr, i rear my ugly head in a silent, typed-out rage! haha
ah man. good times, good times.
i love it.
;it's something sophiscated.
11:07 PM
8.10.2005
reading: idiot's guide to world conflicts
listening to: [once again] flavordisk beats "mouthful of blood" [shit is illin' i swurr]
blurb: "if i could count the days you're not with me, well, i'd just be amazed that i could actually count anything at all"
))((
Woowoo! Goin' the CANADADADIADADA... as in Vancouver, BC. When? 26th. It's offish. Damn the legal drinking age... it's 19!! Gah... Too bad I'm not an old hag, maybe I wouldn't have to worry so much... :D But naah, man... least ways I'll save a lot more to keep myself from bar-hoppin' n whatnot - maybe next year, haha. ANYWAY, I don't want to be too drunk not to appreciate the fuckin city... People CAN have fun being sober too, y'know. Oh, do you now?? Haha...
Saw Pi [as in 3.14 into infinity] the movie at David's house yesterday [aka Flavordisk of the Sandpeople], and man I loved that movie! I'm definitely buying it. I liked how it was black and white the whole time - also the fact that it was directed by the same guy who made Requiem for a Dream didn't hurt much either. Also the story and plot made one really delve into theoretics involving science and math in nature and how they're interwoven, and it also brings out controversies about both topics. I gave it an A - mucho recommendations!! lol
Dave also hooked me up with some PS software - too bad I couldn't install the CS2 since we only have laptops in the house and no desktops, but whatev, I think I only would really need PS for photo editing and shit like that.
Went with John to LoveJoy Park in P-town on the 8th - that was pretty chill, tho I didn't know it was going to end up like some kind of photo shoot! haahaha Idk, just having my pic taken by other people... it's just weird to me but hopefully one of these days I'll get partially used to it. Loved those falls tho! It was so beautiful out there... and we're talking about going out to that germantown road again... or the Painted Hills for another shoot, that would just make my friggin' year. I really want an 8 megapixel cam so bad... tho John let me test out his Canon Rebel, so that made me a happy panda, haha. I did get to kick it with Ryan that one day [he lives only 10 minutes away] - we had Quiznos haha, and rented this one German foreign movie which was kinda funny [I don't think it was supposed to be tho hahaha since some guy got blown in two pieces and he was still alive.... but anyway....] then after that I cruised on over to Jon's place where Flavor was at and watched cartoons and listened to Jon argue with his ex on the phone, and chatted a little with Flav and it just pretty chill. He drove me home since my sis took the car, and whaddya know. He lives 5 minutes away from me, haha, that was crazy. While I was in his car, Shan calls me up crying 'cuz of a fight between her mom and her... *sigh* hence the Canada trip - I wanna get her out of Methford for her 18th b-day... and other reasons. Dast got a broken pinball machine. That kid is crazy, haha, and turning 21 in September. Yah I've got somebody else to buy me booze!! WORD UP! JJJJEAH! hahahaWHAT A FUCKED UP SUMMER :D :D but hey, I'm not complaining, I got to meet a lot of new people, new friends. "Homies fa life!!" LOLI turn 19 this fall *eek*Now THAT makes me a happy panda, haha, as my boss Gary says... that crazy fucker... :PPeace.
;it's something sophiscated.
10:46 PM
