11.15.2005
there will be times in your life where you think: this is where life really begins.
you meet someone that you're totally in love with, you're comfortable around them yet still get those obnoxious jitters, those insane butterflies in the stomach, the sweaty palms, the loss for words.
it's amazing how this system works.
mad, completely, how things just find a way of happening and then is. i am truly blessed [not enough that i have to use
caps, haha]. there aren't any words that can fully portray how this feels - not any that i can find
that can make people understand, because rarely have i found any that actually do, and it's so freaking frustrating. you have to remember that you only live once. sure, do it
right the first time. but sometimes you've got to explore beyond the dotted line.
get figuratively naked and get metaphorically stripped of your cellophane like a lollipop. faces come and go; you catch and hold onto one that actually matters. the others are supposed to be your practice trials. if life's a game, it's one that's on hella hard mode, with few life-ups.
i was given a speech today, an "oral life lesson," if you will [at lunchtime at work of all places]. i may be partially blinded by my flamboyant youth, but everyone has to go through "this" and "that" or the "other" sometime. people are given speeches every day, people give speeches every day. look where we're at, sorry bastards that we are... no matter how life-changing the speech, people will make their own decisions. decisions are the doors in the big house of life - at least that's the way i see it. sometimes doors that lock automatically behind you and you can't go back. either that or they're the forks in some road in the Middle of Nowhere. *sigh* what was the point of this?
who knows, haha.
;it's something sophiscated.
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